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2003-11-02T16:59:00.000-08:00

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steven min kang. the blog. part II

2003-04-24T05:38:00.000-07:00

its 8am on the thursday before graduation. i can't sleep. i didn't even get up this early for my finals. all that's goin in my mind is all the shit i have to take care of. like its all hitting me just now: cap and gown, graduation tix, dinner reservations, clean my room, clean my car, what else. i don't know. ahhhhhhhhh

2003-04-18T22:02:00.000-07:00

this is funny.

it has been now...6 months since i blogged. 6 MONTHS. alot has happened. but this is not the reason for this blog.

i just took two of the worst finals of my life. and...i'm supposedly graduating.. haha. yeah for real though, i had a rough day.
really bad. i just wanted to prep everyone cuz i know that EVERYONE CHECKS MY BLOG ON A DAILY BASIS...that great things are coming with regards to the steve kang blog. all i have to say is dann lee man of the universe. the year is over...there should definitely be awards for the year.....

2002-10-07T07:40:00.000-07:00

you ever have one of those mornings when you couldn't decide whether to wear a coat or not?

weather.com said it was 53 degrees, and would stay in the 50s all day.
what do the 50s mean anyway?

i think 40s and below as definitely cold, and 60s and above warm enough. the 50s is one of them ranges where its really hard to describe how cold it is. if the sun's out, it shouldn't be that bad. but what if the wind blows? that shit goes down 10-15 degrees. was it cold yesterday? not really. and to make this life-altering decision even more annoying, it doesn't help that my attic, aka weather hell, gets really really cold when its kinda cold, and really really hot when the suns out. what the hell is that anyway? if its kinda cold outside, shouldn't it at the VERY WORST be kinda cold inside too?

steve's sleep wear the last two nites:
-long-sleeve shirt
-sweatpants
-socks
-beenie

and a comforter with a sleeping bag on top.

ok shoot me if i'm crazy, but this CAN'T be normal.
i might as well just sleep outside.

anyway..so this morning i actually had my coat on, perfectly content that i'd just made the right decision. its better to err on the safe side right. right. i get downstairs, and just as i'm about to open the front door, i see some shmo walking down the street with just a long-sleeve shirt on.

i stop.

well if he can wear a long-sleeve and make it...why can't I make it with a sweater.

i take my coat off and go outside, understanding that once i step outside, there's no turning back.

i went out.
it was cold.
it got colder.
10 min walk to class ---> still cold.
everyone outside wearing a coat.

i hate me.

2002-09-09T15:55:00.000-07:00

somethings wrong with me..

not so much one specific thing, just a lot of little things. isn't it always like that? i got denied from two classes i wanted to get into. i'm a graduating 5th year senior for crying out loud. shouldn't that not be happening to me?

one class that i did get into, sound recording 331 will no doubt be my favorite class of the year. of my college career. this is the class i've been wanting to take since my sophomore year, and i got the perfect professor to top it off. rob martens owns solid sound studios, where the greenies and most all other acapella groups record. he said himself, "i'm not a professor by any means. i'm just a guy whos done this for 30 years. i'm not here cuz the money's fabulous, i'm here to empty my brain and teach you everything i know about this business and how to record and produce." i almost started crying. this is it, this is the class that will drive me into what i wanna do for the rest of my life.

being that 4 of my classes are in the music school, i've been immersed in the north campus life. to tell the truth, i don't really like it. the people up there really are different. no one normal. no one i feel comfortable talking to. so i see all these people, and then i think about me. am i one of the weird ones?

i'm taking a history of the symphony course. its really cool. i'm one of those guys that a) buys classical cds and b) probably enjoys reading the stories 'behind the music' in the cd covers more than listening to the music. i don't know what it is about them, but i love reading about what was going on during a composer's life when he wrote a certain piece. did you know that mozart wrote his first symphony when he was 8? what the fuck. what were YOU doing when you were 8? its crazy. so gifted, so prolific, and he only lived till 35.

2002-07-29T12:10:00.000-07:00

already knowing that absolutely no one reads my blog...i write again. will anyone read this? probably not. i'll write more for my own therapeutic reasons. and the fact that my writing sux and any practice will do me good.

summer term in aa has really been an experience..a good one in that i've been able to have qt to myself....and a bad one in that i've been able to have qt to myself. ok it hasn't been that bad at all. living with babbs has been cool. i feel like all we do is play street fighter, and smoke that fricking hookah. its been really nice finding someone that plays street fighter here in michigan. i feel like the game was never as big in the midwest/east coast as it was in the west. i can't even begin to count how much cash i spent on that game. it was more than an addiction. if you didn't play the game, there was something wrong with you. i remember walking countless blocks just to play on the perfect machine, not that we'd get to play that much. there'd always be huge crowds, and when you'd finally get to play, there'd be so much pressure to win, that i'd usually crumble.

but when the game came to nintendo? it was game time. i bought that shit fast enough to get a copy, and every day, hours upon hours working on my game. it sounds rediculous now, but at the time, it was perfectly the thing to do. the best times were when about 10 of us would get together and play all night. man, that was a long time ago.

so when daryl came over and left his machine here, its been like old times ever since. me and babbs have had our battles, and its been keeping me mentally stable this summer. i can't wait to see everyone in ny again.

2001-11-22T00:22:00.000-08:00

road trips never let me down. no matter who i'm riding with, or for how long, its always an experience. today i did the aa-nj trip with pz, sharon, and kyle. and not to get into specifics about this trip, cuz i know i tend to do that when i write, and i know that the four of us might laugh about it looking back, but i honestly believe that we all could have died today. twice. and i'm not talking so much near death experiences or that we all escaped death. what if the other tire popped? what if we made that left turn when there were cars coming?

when we took that walk along the water and we stared at the new new york skyline for the first time in person, i couldn't stop thinking about what wasn't there, and how in the blink of an eye, thousands were lost. and then i thought about what almost happened to the four of us today. right there, those 3 minutes of us not saying a word but just looking out, i'm never ever going to forget.

the things i take for granted...are the things i love the most.

2001-10-24T20:22:00.000-07:00

(wrote this on 10/24, but for some reason it didn't get posted.)

as it is now the one month anniversary of my last blogging, lets think for a sec.

what the heck happened.

to be honest, i don't even know. my short term memory has gone to sludge, even thinking of what i did today, its taking me longer than usual.
for one, i am currently an inactive member of funktion. just decided that i needed to concentrate on my music, whether that be arrangements for greenies or arrangements for the ksa show, or my own songs i'm working on with eric, i wanted to give what i could to my music. i hate to say that i'm not coming back to funktion, but i also hate saying that i'm on a month leave or something. i said that initially to the group, and i didn't realize then how shitty that is to say to them. "yeah, while you guys work your butts off, i'm just gonna do my own thing and come back when i feel like it". so now, i'm inactive. me coming back to the group and when depends on funktion first, and myself second.

greenies had our first big performance of the year this past saturday. the compulsive lyres hosted the big acapella festival where 8 acapella groups on campus came together for 2 nites of singing. we killed it. like right when we walked off the mendelsohn theater stage, we all knew. it was great. and the complements from random peeps saying we were great, its an awesome feeling. this was all a surprise to me, cuz for most of the semester its like we all wanted to rip at each others throats. tensions are at the highest since i've been in greenies. i've been thinking about calling a group meeting to just settle everything, but i don't know. i'm hoping everything comes together. it usually does, right?

2001-09-24T18:16:00.000-07:00

i don't wanna write about last tuesday. watching the news and reading about it everywhere is plenty enough for me. all i wanna do is forget about it.

this past weekend, funktion took in 4 new guys: davon, scott, cal, and anthony. congratulations to them. our next gig is oct. 9th on the diag for homecoming. should be dope. i'll let you know what time we're performing. it should be dope. better than festifall if anything.

everyone in ny/nj area: angie, leslie, grace, peggy, karina, lynn, jon, amit, sam, jeyi, louis, mandisa...please be safe. stay strong. i can't even imagine what its like for you, being so close to it all. i wish i were there just to be with you guys. my prayers are going to you everyday. take care.

2001-09-07T17:18:00.000-07:00

its been so long since i last blogged, i almost forgot my password.

and its only been like 2 weeks since janet and the ny gathering, but it seems like so long ago. janet, in a word, was incredible. no other concert will ever compare, and thats saying a lot given that we had seats in the last row of the third balcony. it didn't matter. she's a goddess. the rest of the week was great too. all the mafia, dr. mario, basketball, drinking, and clubbing a sane man could handle. forget that i'm completely broke now without a job. i'd do it again in a heartbeat.

school started two days ago. its weird to be taking classes again, but i'm a happier person for it. there's some sort of purpose in my life again. i'm a student. i have to get good grades. that's all thats really asked of me now.

festifall was yesterday. i've always enjoyed festifall cuz i love seeing everyone outside in the sun, and catching up with people i haven't seen all summer. funktion's performance, to be honest, was probably one of the worst i've been a part of. thats just me. i fucked up. badly. i don't think i've ever fucked up so badly in a dance since dance mix. and i don't even wanna talk about that. but the croud was great as usual. and friends are the best because they'll lie and say you were incredible even though you fucked up.

i need to get a planner. cuz all these gigs and responsiblities are coming up, and i'm still in summer mode thinking all i have to do is wake up and eat.
and i gotta fix my computer.
and clean my room.
and pay rent. oh crap sorry mr. burkhead.

on a good side note, the greenies are gonna sing the national anthem for one of the piston games this year. how dope is that???
now all we need is an arrangement of the national anthem.
that would be important.

some of you know this, but just recently, i decided to go for music. as in becoming a producer/songwriter. and its been crazy cuz ever since i made that decision, there's been all these 'signs' pointing me in that path and reminding me that this is the right way to go. its eerie. like people randomly telling me how their friend is a producer or how his friend is in the music industry. ok i know this doesn't sound like 'signs' but thats just cuz i can't explain myself well enough. but without explaining, God's been telling me that music is the right decision for me. and let me tell you, thats a wonderful feeling. how i'm getting there, thats another question.

i read a great book this summer, which in itself is remarkable cuz i haven't read a book for leisure since i don't remember. my sis and i were running errands and she wanted to go to borders. so here i am in the new fiction section just looking at the pretty covers and such, never thinking for a second that i would read any of them. steph (my sis) pulls me over to this book called 'the alchemist' by paulo coehlo (sp?). all she said was, 'you should read this. i'll buy it for you'. i was like ok.

but anyway i don't know why i'm going so in detail over this, but all this fate talk and stuff has got me going. the book in a nutshell basically tells you that the only reason you're put on this planet is to live out your destiny. there's nothing else. i read 'the alchemist' literally the day after i decided to go for music, and i think it was the first 'sign' that music was the way to go.

when i was meeting with my advisor to schedule classes for the fall, i came across this quote she had on her bulletin board. i was gonna write it down, but i thought i'd be rude in doing so. apologies for the inaccuracies in the quote.

" the biggest mistake people make is finding a job simply because it pays.
do what you love to do, work hard enough at it, and if you're good enough, the money will come"

2001-08-20T10:14:00.000-07:00

its 1 in the afternoon, and i'm chillin at lake village.

...?

i'm here with palak, kimmie, and heather. we're about to head out to good ol jersey city. we were planning to leave by 11:30, but as usual, we're late. its my fault cuz my dumbass forgot to pack last nite. i hope my car makes it there. palak has her 3 volumes of her summer jams that we'll listen to, and of course nsync and alicia. it doesn't yet feel like we're going to ny. it doesn't feel like we're gonna be in a car for the next 10 hours, but it should be fun. bonding with these three is something i haven't done yet.
road trip bonding....there's nothing better.

2001-08-17T22:40:00.000-07:00

its 1 in the morning, and i'm chillin at lake village. i love coming here cuz you can do absolutely nothing and have a completely awesome time. its a supposed big week at lake: gary g and madeline, hands down two of the most musically talented people i have ever met in my life, are tying the knot next week, and all their friends are coming up. its cool. porta just got here a minute ago. the whole gangs here, alvin, chris, jay, eric, anna, fung, gary, mad, and people i don't know cuz i'm so young. i'm surrounded by 25 year olds and up. i feel like a freshman again and i love it.

i honestly think that filipinos have more fun than other people. i believe it so much that i'll make it a theorem.

steve kang theorem #1: filipinos have more fun.

like i'm here at the computer, and they're all sitting in a circle talking about i don't have a clue but they just can't stop laughing. i mean i laugh cuz theyre laughing. its impossible not to laugh or smile here cuz everyones so friendly and happy.

i played golf today with john baek. johns like 26 i think, but he's one of the few hyungs i have that i can act normally around. he's as much a dork as i am, if not a bigger dork. anyway, we played at this course called "the legacy" (cheese) but really it was sooo nice. only 36 bucks too, with a cart. for those who golf, you know thats dirt cheap. and check it out, on the golf carts, they had a GPS system, telling you accurately to the yard how far you are from the pin and various locations on each hole. there was a lil pic of a cart on the screen that would move slowly as to where you were on the hole. it was awesome. my golf (i shot a 94. yuck) not so good, but the fairways were beautiful..they even had an island green on one of the par 3s and i luckily found the green. that shit is freaky.

anyway..

i think i should not be mr. antisocial and join the group once again. either that or leave. they look like theyre deeply in conversation. in that circle and all too. i'm happy though cuz were all gonna ball tomorrow. i haven't balled in weeks. don't suck don't suck don't suck.

2001-08-12T15:18:00.000-07:00

i am having a tired.

got into AA at 5:30 am est. which is 2:30 am pst.
scrambled eggs and toast don't taste too good at 3 in the morning, but one must adjust right. gonads valiantly picked me up, all dark outside, him all passed the heck out in his maxima.

we assumed angelos wasn't gonna be open yet, so denny's it was. we ate, we left. gonads took me home and i promptly crashed.

as much as i would've liked to continue in my hibernation, i had to get up cuz SURPRISE i had dance rehearsal. just picking up where last year left off i suppose. eric emailed funktion cuz he needed a couple of guys to perform for this filipino something or another on september 2nd. how could i pass on the opportunity to dance with eric and anna one more time? impossible.

rehearsal was good. heidi balatico is the main choreographer (along with anna. woohooo!) and she's really good. i had heard from eric and anna before that she was on michigan state's dance team and that she was the best dancer at the school, yada yada yada.she just tried out for the knick girls and unfortunately got cut in the final round. that in itself is impressive. but this group we got dancing for this gig on the 2nd is impressive. 2 girls (one of them anna) made it to the final cut for the piston girls but got cut. yay for anna again, but considering she's only danced hip-hop last year and anyway she hadn't danced since april, that gets a double yay. a couple others have been dancers for the detroit shock. its sorta intimidating for me just to think about it. the choreography was challenging, but i love heidi's style. she's got some cali in her i can tell. but after not dancing all summer and coming back today to learn about 24 8counts of stuff, i was definitely rusty to say the least. i got kinda braindead the last couple of hours cuz my head just wouldn't take any more choreography. regardless, i'm excited about this dance.

2001-08-11T18:59:00.000-07:00

leaving for AA tonight. i can't believe how early i'm going back.

met up with mikey song and sharon last nite. it was good seeing michigan folk again, especially mike cuz i haven't seen that guy in a long time. i was kinda pissed cuz i missed out on seeing babbs, hong, and mike the night before. but its almost all my fault. i was in cali all this time and i didn't get in touch with mike until last nite. i don't know why i do that. its almost as if something deep down says that it'll be awkward if you call people, but in the end it never is.

we ended up going to a korean club called stone age 2000 and if you think about it, if there were going to be any place in the world named stone age 2000, it'd be a korean bar. it made perfect sense. mike, sharon, and i were joined by mike's girlfriend zita (spelling?), mikes friends esther and fuck i forgot his name but he was mad funny. lets call him ed.
esther insisted we drink about 5 different large carafes of soju. what flavors did we have: (short term memory shot as a result of my drunkeness) .. yogurt, grape, strawberry twice, ok we had four. but add that with a 3000 cc barrel of beer, and we had alcohol to feed a colony. it was overwhelming to say the least. me and my 3 beer maximum got put to the test.

esther was ruthless. a minute after one shot, she'd be pouring the next one. if my glass had any beer in it, she'd be like "why aren't you drinking? are you korean? then you should be fine"

oh and for the record, i was right. we had grape soju twice. memory slowly coming back.

so granted this will be an approximation, and mind you, flavored soju is much weaker than any hard liquor, but total i think i had about 12 shots and about 6 glasses of beer. i wanted to stop after about the 8th shot, but esther just would not let up. i just met this girl for crying out loud, and she just kept challenging my ethnicity. i was in complete kinrd-dom by the time we left. mikey was pretty trashed himself, but he insisted on driving. trust me, i didn't stop him. i could barely get in the car. when we got back to mike's, i promptly passed the fuuuuccckk out. thank goodness i didn't yak. or then again maybe i shoulda yakked, cuz my stomach is feeling it now. but it was worth it.

good thing my flights a red eye, cuz i am so tired.

my friend, sherman's birthday was this week, and now we're having a lil belated birthday dinner for him. brazilian barbeque....mmmmm. food coma's gonna come easy tonight.

2001-08-10T14:35:00.000-07:00

i am hungry.

but there is no food at home.

i have a car.

but i have no money.

i am having a die.

2001-08-06T01:44:00.000-07:00

*i think my uncle is in the mafia.

more on that later.

just got back from vegas. overall, i'd give the trip a B. how we got one of the penthouse suites at the MGM grand, considering my uncle made the reservation the day before, is beyond me. (see *) the room was beautiful. the minute i walked in, i thought of that scene in rainman when tom cruise and brother dustin walk into their dope penthouse suite after they'd won mucho mucho dinero. ok so our room wasn't as nice as rainman's, but it was close.

and if i were to die today, i would die in peace knowing that i had the opportunity, no privelege of eating a $36 bowl of soup. it is at the Dragon Court restaurant in the MGM where YOU TOO can indulge in this sharks fin and abalone experience. now i know what youre thinking...

that is one helluva good bowl of soup.

and lemmee tell ya, it sure was.

add that with peking duck, 3 seafood dishes, a curry dish cuz oh boy i do love that curry, and 2 glasses of wine...HELLO my belleh was beaming with happiness. it was the single most enjoyable meal i can remember.

do you care?

the funny thing is, there was a $68 bowl of soup on the menu. what could they possibly do to a bowl of soup? do they feed you the soup? massage and strip show?

after my uncle took the bill again, i got curious and asked him what he does in korea cuz i never really knew. all he said was 'business' and started laughing. thats when the mafia thinking started. i mean, this wasn't the first time he's taken the bill. we've been eating like kings all summer. and beyond just food, i know he's been spending money like nobody's business.
he got hooked up with a new mercedes S430 for the summer. i mean he wears black all the time.

i'm freaking out.

anyways, this trip woulda been an A+ if i hadn't made the slight mistake of losing 3 bills at the blackjack table. but i did get to golf, and we did shop for a lil bit. and by the end of the trip, my uncle had supposedly won about 5 g's, so the trip was overall a success.

2001-08-04T10:13:00.000-07:00

after writing a hour long blog last nite, only to see it get erased cuz i "performed an illegal action", i write, bitter and annoyed overall at my lack of computer smarts the last week.

going to vegas in a few minutes. my aunt, uncle and cousin want one last hurrah before they leave for korea monday. there, i plan to cram as much golf, gambling, shopping, and prime rib a man could possibly fit in 2 days. wish me luck.

also wish me luck that this blog gets posted for the love of God.

2001-08-03T21:25:00.000-07:00

dude, i hope this works.

after my first failed attempt at bloggerness, and hours trying to figure out what the hell i did wrong to not be able to access my blog, i am here with a new page, and a new philosophy on blogging.

philosophy: if i screw up this time, blogging can suck it twice.

its pretty simple, i think.

and since i didn't do it last time, i would like to take this opportunity to give a shout out to my homefry jeyi "queen of the bloggers" leu for helping me out with my blog problem. why is this stuff so complicated.

so cross your fingers, and sign me my guestbook when i get one. i gots lots to write about.